Happy belated 2 month birthday, Simon!
I started a post on his birthday while I was at work, but it got erased somehow (blogger app on my phone is not that great). And I was on call so ended up being too busy/tired to repost.
Jeff and I were both pretty tired this week. Simon had one night of restless sleep and I ended up being pretty tired during the next day. I was so tired last night that I passed out while holding him in bed, trying to soothe him to sleep. Guess he fell asleep hardcore, too, since he slept from 9 to 3 am! Fantastic. I'm not holding my breath for him to sleep like that every night, though. Setting my expectations a bit low for the time being and just happy that he sleeps 5 hour stretches about 50% of the time :).
Today was his 2 month visit. It went okay. Simon didn't cry too much after his two shots. My brave little guy! We'll see how he does over the next few days. The pediatrician said there is a 1 in 20 chance of some sort of reaction. We got infant Tylenol just in case anyway. Our usual pediatrician is on vacation so this was her partner in the clinic. To be honest, Jeff and I both didn't like her too much. She kept pointing out all these things that were "wrong" with Simon - like the folds of his neck being rashy, that he would develop a permanent turned neck (torticollis) since he likes to turn his neck to the right, etc. The way she talked made me feel like I was being a bad parent. I'm pretty sure she didn't know I'm a doctor, but at that point I was too tired to tell her and just wanted to get the visit over with. On top of all this we had to wait about 35 min in the waiting room...I understand delays, especially since I know how difficult it is to not fall behind, but it's not fun to wait in the waiting room with a fussy 2 month old.
Anyway. Just thankful that we like our usual pediatrician a lot. And that she is much more warm/friendly/encouraging.
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Work has been good. I made a really difficult decision this week to not pursue a fellowship in pediatric anesthesia, at least for the time being. There were lots of reasons, including a much heavier call schedule than I had anticipated (in house call), not seeing myself working in a pediatric hospital after, not sure about how much the fellowship would help with getting a job...and now, having Simon in my life, especially with his medical condition, I just feel like I don't want to spend so much time at work anymore. I would like to have time to be with him besides 1-2 hours in the evening and the weekend. And have time to take care of myself - just simple things like exercising and cooking. Maybe this decision was influenced by the fact that I'm pretty tired, but I just couldn't see myself being on call all the time and spending all those nights in the hospital. I do feel a twinge of regret, though, when I think of taking care of kids at work...they're so cute and I do love talking to them :).
This is one of those decisions where you can't be 100% happy with either choice. Being a grown up is hard sometimes.
Getting pretty tired so I will finish with more thoughts later. Want to write a long blog post about my mom and how she has become a crazy overbearing grandparent (I exaggerate...only a little).
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