December already

The last two weeks have sure gone by quickly. The end of the year, with all the holidays and get togethers, always seems to fly by. 

For me, November/December always brings up lots of time for reflection and conflicting emotions-- regret (for another year gone, and things left undone, goals not accomplished), anticipation (for the new year and things to look forward to), and excitement (for quality time with family, a break from work).

This year there have obviously been lots of changes with Simon. The holidays seem to matter a bit more with family time. Besides that, though, I've been thinking a lot about finishing residency and work next year. My mind constantly wanders to what I'll be doing after graduation. Again, a mix of emotions - excitement to be finally done with residency and long work hours, but also apprehension and a sense of uncertainty about what I'll be doing, focusing on. It's uncharted territory for me since I've had a pretty clear path since college. Get into med school. Get married. Get into residency. Have a kid.

 I just don't really know what I want. I know what I don't want more clearly than having an idea of what I'll be doing. I suppose it will be part time work and part time mom. I suppose I will have time for extracurriculars/hobbies again? Everyone tells me it gets "so much better" after residency so I guess I should be excited. And I am, for sure, especially on those days where I've been in the hospital for way too long. 

Anyway. Enough rambling on my inner angst :) time for some Simon pictures! 

Simon is getting more and more aware of his environment now. He loves to look around and gets bored with the same stuff. He is really good at rolling back to front but sometimes get stuck on his belly and can't roll back. This happens almost every night now where he gets stuck and then starts fussing, which wakes me up. Hopefully he gets better at rolling himself back so he can go back to sleep by himself.

His two favorite things to reach for now are my phone and my water bottle. Haha. Can't believe he's already into screens! 

I've tried several purees now trying to get him started on solids, since he's really into what we're eating. So far I've tried apple, pear, oatmeal and avocado. He doesn't seem to be that into eating but he does a decent job of swallowing. So I'm just taking it slowly until he really starts picking up his interest. 

Laughing at me saying "ahchoo!!"

Getting so big now. I remember when this outfit was way too big for him. Now it fits just perfectly.